Cry

Today’s rainy day seemed like a perfect time to release the floodgates of my stored emotions. King & I walked along the beach in rain gear navigating through a shoreline filled with seaweed.

I looked to the ocean as I walked and waited. Then waited and waited.

As I walked, I realized that I can not call upon my emotions and demand them to show up so I may cry.

So I released the expectation, said my morning prayers, called upon and thanked all of my ancestors, spirit guides, guardian angels, protectors and expressed my love for them as I asked them to guide me in releasing all of the pain and anguish I carry.

I asked them to guide me as I just want to live my life.

To help myself.

To focus on my pain, to just let it go.

Till then...